Winter’s Song

In the warm seasons

I stayed outside most hours of the day

listening,

praying,

journaling,

walking and

watching all the creatures in the garden.

I watched what was happening all around me,

All that I had no control over

I was embraced by the beauty and my soul was touched.

I sent questions up to God in heaven

I begged my husband to be near,

and each and every time out of the stillness

A Breeze would answer my prayer,

a gentle sacred mysterious caress would comfort me.

I was so afraid for winter to come,

Of the cold silencing of Creation.

My daughter assured me I’d be able to step outside even in the cold, in the rain or the snow and feel you near.

These chimes have been the sacred winter music that the wind plays for me in answer to my prayers now. They have rung welcoming friends at the door, helping me to feel the oneness of our hospitable heart toward our loved ones.

They’ve sung through the night when I’ve missed you.

And when the storm was fierce, they rang so loud singing such a protective angry song we had to bring them inside so that we could rest.

We slept peacefully in the safe home that you provided,

Hearing the powerfully passionate wind outside moving all of creation intensely declaring its beauty.

In this tornado of memories and emotions, I’m trying to make this home, my being, a safe and secure place, this body that was one with yours, where our souls worshipped together, this temple in which my spirit lives.

I’m trying to make it safe and somehow teach our children to make theirs safe too,

In the midst of this unimaginable storm,

while my soul strains to hear your Heavenly song, in the uncontrollable, my heart is moved with passion to declare eternal beauty.

...the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. Genesis

The heavens declare the glory of God- their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world. from Psalm 19

"Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him.” from Luke