At sunrise I wake-
What do I do when half my heart is gone?
Run into the firey morning searching for love's embrace.
Beg the rose colored heavens
That this dawn he’d touch my face.
I weep at the thought of another day of asking countless times-
“Why? -
What now?-
How do I eat, sleep or dream when everything seems wrong?”
Every half uttered prayer, every question I begin
Is answered by great powerful gusts
And I’m rocked in your hammock by the wind
Heaven’s tiny messenger
A hummingbird
Approaches full of joy
He feeds on sweet locust clusters
Directly in my searching silent gaze
He’s drinking up the sweetness gratefully
Provided for him today
The church bells ring incessantly
Every moment a call to pray
These tears are so bitter Lord
It makes it hard to see
The gentle truth
Your Creation is soul singing
Just to me
Angelo, what would you have me do?
By example, surrendered.
What is the next step?
“Go-
Extend grace and comfort
Go-
I’ve given you a way
Go-
Share our heart with our loved ones
Go-
It will all be ok.”
And the peace beyond comprehension
Began to flood my heart
And a strength that is beyond me
Carried us exactly to where we should start.
You let me pillow her head, and cool her in the heat
To her thoughts I listened,
And carried a message from heaven.
That you would be there if you could,
But you’re waiting with your Savior
She’s beautiful, and generous and selfless
And she’s done all that she should.
Then the strangest thing happened as she rested.
You gave me unexpected gifts,
Ones far beyond my reach.
With a friend, remembering magical times
I was suddenly walking on the beach.
And you bought me my favorite,
The most delicious white peach.
You walked me through each step
I never thought I’d take
By prompting me to do what you would
For someone else’s sake.
I can see the smile on your face,
Every moment now you shine,
From heaven I held your embrace,
While you reminded me that you are
And always will be, forever mine.
Dedicated to Lisa Maffia and My Angelo
August 16, 2020